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I got promoted to junior team leader! I applied for this position in one location, but they went with someone else, who already worked there. But a position became available at another store, and they chose me. :D It's all exciting and new and also a little bit scary but I feel confident and it feels really rewarding. I can put the applying for jobs aside for a bit. Sigh. Hope everyone's week is going well. <3
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Weird how I won't be saying 'hello lj' or something like it ever again.

My entries have been imported, and I'm just waiting for the last bit to finish and then I can go through deleting some stuff. I'm not actually sure if there is much point deleting a lot of things? It's out there anyway... Suggestions?

Also, in the past they did import comments on dreamwidth and it seems that is no longer a thing, which makes me sad. I have an archive of most of my blog on my computer, but that tool is no longer working? Ugh. I should have kept up with the backing up thing. :( Comments are in my email, so I guess it's not lost forever.

I've been rereading a lot of things I wrote in the past and it's made me realise how much I miss it. There's a good five year gap between semi-regular posting, my gosh.

Anyway, not much news to offer really. I've been applying for jobs again. I feel like this time my motivation has changed from 'I want to do something that helps people!' to 'please mother of GOD get me out of this JOB'. It's not bad in itself, I get a lot of responsibility and stuff. But it's always 'in case someone else falls out' so sometimes I fall back to the basics of the job which is slowly killing my spirit. I'd like to either grow in this career, and become a managing assistant to the front end area (i.e. organising day to day cashier work, keeping tabs on financial day to day stuff, and a lot of HR) or find a new career. I want to learn and grow.

I've seen a coach to help me figure out what's the what in my brain and do feel like I've made up my mind about some stuff. It's given me some confidence and affirmation about my skills that I haven't gotten in a long while. I used to be uncomfortable being a leader, but I've found that I do enjoy it and I want to explore that. I also want to work with people. Helping them, or talking to them, or coaching them, whatever. But I don't think I'll be happy behind a desk full time.

At the same time, it's not like I'm happy now, so if my current applications don't work out, I'll see what I can do desk job wise. If that doesn't satisfy me, I can see about studying social work.

It sucks that I was so specific in the past about what I wanted, I never wanted to study social work, I wanted my bachelor's to be enough, I wanted only the social sector, etc. Who knows what I missed because of that? But it made me feel secure to have that plan, and like all other graduating people probably, I thought my situation was going to be different!

I'm going to my old college for a symposium on coaching soon together with Sofie, who is also exploring other options job-wise. It's going to be cool to learn something, but it's going to even better to hang with her. Over the years I have kept in contact with my college friends, but it's almost always a group thing, which is awesome but not the same. We've all got different lives now, and I still live farther away from them all, and I always miss them.

Speaking of friends, Eliza is expecting identical twins! I remember talking about her on my lj and that is years and years ago. How great is it to find that we still have space and time in our lives for each other, so we can see the change from highschool graduates, to being an entrepreneur (in-house architect!) married with children?

Life isn't bad. I love living with Fia, we make it work really well. I love cooking, and being on my own. Little things will always be 'not perfect' but that's fine.

Hopefully this move will kick start me into posting more regularly!

See you soon. Hopefully.
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I'm on my last day of music! Yay!

You know, I kind of liked this meme, and I think I will do the 30 days of SPN. I know that's not really interesting for a lot of you, but I'd really like to try it.

Day #30: Your favorite song at this time last year

I picked two songs! I didn't listen to a lot of music according to in September, but I checked August and September and came to the conclusion that I listened to two songs a lot.

First one is If It Kills Me by Jason Mraz. I got to know it because of so you think you can dance. I always watched the videos on ontd of the American sytycd last year, because I wanted to see how Jeanine Mason was doing. I saw her dance a couple of times through channels about dancing competitions I am subscribed to on youtube. So, one of the songs she danced to for sytycd is this song, and I kind of loved it.

I was looking for a youtube vid but could only find boring ones. Might as well show you the sytycd routine, no?

Second is Jeff Buckley's 'Lover You Should've Come Over'. I love this. I just... everytime I think what a damn shame it is that we didn't get to hear more of this man than we did. Anyway, I think he's or was brilliant. <3

There wasn't really any youtube video that I liked (one was blocked by Sony so that was probably what I had been looking for) so I just uploaded it for you:

Lover, You Should've Come Over

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Going to watch some SPN now, Nightshifter and Houses of the Holy. The latter is one of my favourite episodes. Oh and then it's Born Under a Bad Sign. Yaaaaaaaaaaaay.

It's sooo odd to see Clémence Poésy and Katie Cassidy on Gossip Girl! I keep thinking 'Omg Fleur, what are you doing with Chuck Bass?". And I dislike Katie Cassidy's character. Which is odd! Because I liked Ruby 1.0.

Oh and Emma Caulfield was on Life Unexpected! (I know, my taste in tv shows blows you away, right?) I was like 'oh haaaay Anya!'. She was all... human and not demon-y.

My ear hurts. :(

Byeeeeeeeeeee! <3
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Hi guys!

Day #29: A song from your childhood

This is a song that makes me think of when I was young and stayed with my grandparents for the night. My grandma loved Sylvie Melodie, I remember that. She was really popular. Still is, but she's not that little cute girl anymore!

This is her (Belgian/Flemish) cover of Ben:

Now she's like 28 or something? And she can still sing it, but I won't bore you.

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I'm so bored lately. Ugh. I have watched so many Vlogs on youtube. XD Ah well. Soon I will be employed. Yay!

Supernatural started its sixth season on Friday. I keep on thinking 'It was good but I didn't like this and this and this and this and -'. YOU CAN NEVER PLEASE A SUPERNATURAL FAN.

[Unknown site tag]I am a Samapologizer most of the time. I always found ways to defend his behaviour the last few seasons. I love him and he's Sammy. But I kind of wanted to punch him this episode and that has never happened before. I get his reasoning, but I hate how everyone knew about Sam being back and no one told Dean. Like... Bobby would flip if anyone tried that with him. Same with Sam! I was like, what the hell?!

I hate the Campbells. Well, I adore Mary, of course, but the living Campbells can go. First of all, I don't buy the 'Lol someone pulled me out of heaven' part. Second, I just did not like any of the new characters at all. Especially that chick. When they were mocking Dean in Lisa's house for trying to live a normal life, I got so mad. I'm so protective over my favourite fictional characters. Third, I don't buy the 'oh third cousin something something'. YED supposedly killed all Mary's living relatives, and suddenly more Campbells show up? I mean, I know that the Campbells are badass, and their ancestors were hunters and they might have been able to hide from YED. Buuut I still don't buy it. :/ They have a bad influence on Sam, I think.

Also, Sampa was all 'Lolz I know things even your daddy didn't know, hah' and I was like 'Bitch you did not just say that!' I know Sir wasn't really... a good father. BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN HE GETS TO INSULT HIM. Or be better than him. Or try to replace him. Frustrationnnn.

I think what I hated most was that Sam was talking about his awesome hunting adventures with his awesome new family or whatever, while Dean was trying all year to live his life with Lisa, grieving for his brother and clearly having a really rough time.

Also, everyone is entitled to their opinion, but I see no reason for Lisa and Ben to die. I actually kind of love them. And it's obvious he's not going to stay with them, I mean, he's not saying, "I love Lisa, I am going to stay with her forever ♥_♥.". Calm doooown, fandom. (I know, this is spn fandom... :P)

I'd be pretty disappointed in Dean if he had just said "Oh, lol, Lisa I don't love you, kthxbai." That would have been out of character. I wish Lisa was a little more tough, like Jo or Bela. A little more 'Uhm Dean you are stupid and I deserve better' and a little less 'This was the best year of my life'. But she's nice. Can't really blame her for falling for Dean.

It's not even like they're really in LOVE with eachother, I think. Lisa said it herself: she wished Ben had someone like a father to look up to. I don't know, they're a good match I think? But only temporarily. I get it, though. I buy it? It's messed up that Dean just showed up on her doorstep like that, yeah. But I wouldn't turn him down either. And Dean was doing it for Sam. And he chose Lisa because Lisa is the one that made him realise that hey, he actually wants a family some day. Different than the one he knew after his mother died. Back in season 3 he thought he was going to die - well and he did - and he had nothing but his brother to leave behind. That idea of a family for himself stuck around after saving Ben. Why is it so hard to believe that? People do that all the time, clinging to ideas for years.

Didn't mean to write all that.

Why do I care so much? XD

Jensen did a terrific job, as always. Sometimes it's obvious that Jared is trying really hard? I don't get that feeling with Jensen. And he's so goodlooking, that helps. I really love his lips.

I am not superficial. Tsh.

Anyways, nothing more interesting to tell!

Hope everyone is doing great!

I know i have some comments that I still owe some of you. It's odd how I'm bored but then I forget to do the most simple things! D:

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Hi guys!

So this is my attempt at being more active on lj again. I don't understand how I could post so much in July, while I'm pretty much doing the exact same thing all day. Nothing. :P

I got a job for a week at a hotel, lol. House keeping. Yeah... it'll probably suck. But I'll at least get some money. Kind of need to buy stuff, like blouses and beauty products. I need stuff for my wrinkles. That no one else can see but me. Whatever, it's all about prevention.

Day #27: a song that you wish you could play

Dawn, from the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack. Upload tomorrow or later.

I'm working on this song now, but it's hard to motivate myself to actually play lately. I have no patience with myself. I can play every song I ever had to play, but learning new things on my own ain't that easy for me. I have no discipline and I want to get it right immediately. And this song isn't so hard! If I would practice daily I could play it.

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I was going to start going to take classes again. I promised myself I would do that. But then my plans for this year changed, and I'm probably not going to be in the country for half of the school year, so I'm not paying 200 euros for 1 semester of classes. Also, I wouldn't be taking exams or anything so that would be a real waste. Maybe in 2012-2013, right?

I just feel so empty-like. I can't get myself to write. I only watch tv shows and movies. I get so dragged down by all the negativity in this house. Siiigh. But I'll see Sophie and Stefanie again on Thursday for shopping, so that'll be nice. Plus if I go to work next week, I'm done at about 3pm, so that means I have time to go shopping or something. Maybe I'll buy a book...

I graduated officially yesterday! Got a fancy piece of paper that says I'm a Professional Bachelor in Applied Psychology. And I am taking classes that'll eventually lead me to be allowed to teach psychology and stuff in high school. So that's kind of productive.

And last week was a pretty good week. So maybe I'm just pms-ing. Hmmm.

Talk to you guys soon, thanks for reading.

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So I thought I'd actually work on finishing this meme! I'm just going to post each day, and not like do them all at once now. :)

Day 26: a song that you can play on an instrument

Alright, so it was either this or Born To Make You Happy. ;)

Evenstar, from the The Two Towers soundtrack!

Can't upload, I don't have it. :/

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So, originally I wanted to post all the rest of the songs for the 30 days of music meme, but I am way too lazy. And who knows, maybe I'll have internet in Italy. :)

Day 24: a song that you want to play at your funeral

I missed yesterday's post, simply because it's so morbid. I was like, wth sometimes I say this about songs, but I don't really want to think about it, really?

I'd like something quiet and fitting. Something old maybe.

Something like this:

Bob Dylan - Knockin' on Heaven's Door

Maybe a little cliché, but eh.

I was so surprised when I could not find any video of this. Covers all around, but no original.

I would also love a beautiful classical piece, but I have no idea which one.

Day 25: a song that makes you laugh

Maybe kind of juvenile, but this was my first thought:


These are the songs from two days ago:

Paul McCartney - Maybe I'm Amazed
Cris Cornell - Thank You

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Alright, at 4 am I leave with my parents to Firenze for two weeks. Part looking forward to it, part apprehensive because my parents aren't in the best of moods. And I'll miss people. But that's normal, I think? :)

I don't know if I'll have internet, but I hope so. But in case I don't, I'll see you in two weeks! ;)

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Day 23: a song that you want to play at your wedding

Well this is kind of hard, because I'm not in a relationship and the romance in my life isn't really... there. So I don't really have a lot of music about love in a positive way, or that I think 'oh I want this at my wedding'. You know, I'd like to have a song at my wedding that is special to me and my significant other. But I can't look into the future. :D

But if I had to chose now it would be two songs.

First one:

Chris Cornell - Thank You

I got this song by downloading a Sam Winchester research playlist, haha. I'd never heard the original by Led Zeppelin, and I kinda like it better. I know, blasphemy.

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I keep skipping a day. D:

Day 21: a song that you listen to when you're happy

When I'm happy I feel like dancing, and I also feel like indulging myself in silly music. Mostly this leads me to listening to pop music from when I was ~young. Usually I do this by looking at youtube videos, since I don't have that many pop songs on here. I might fix that some day.

The song I picked is this one:

*NSYNC - Bye Bye Bye

They weren't that popular in Belgium, I think. I mean, my little sister doesn't know *NSYNC but she does know the Backstreet Boys and Five, and that was the same time period, wasn't it?

Speaking of my 'little' sister (she's taller than me :(). She has a boyfriend now who is 19. Soon she'll be 17. I'm soooo not ready for her to be sexually active, it makes me have minor freak outs. I just want her to stay 14 and (somewhat) innocent forever.

On to Day 22...

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Today I finally got Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. My collection is complete, at last!

Well, you know, sort of. I still want them all in hardback. So I will fix that whenever I get a job or something.

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Lol my dad just taught me something new: House of The Rising Sun was originally by Bob Dylan, The Animals made it famous.

Day 20: a song that you listen to when you're angry

I just realised my '>:[' playlist is kind of outdated! Which means I haven't used it in a while. I think I just turn to 90's pop nowadays and dance my angryness away. Usually when I'm angry I don't listen to music because I don't have the patience for it.

Seventy Times 7 works. But I just used Brand New yesterday. So I'm gonna go with Rise Against. They're what I listen to when I need something fast and grrr.

Rise Against - Give It All.

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And now I'm gonna go watch a movie with my sister. <3
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It's really hard to post every day! On to the meme, as I have nothing exciting to tell you all.

Day 18: a song that you wish you heard on the radio

Madonna - Frozen

Copy pasted from wikipedia: On November 18, 2005, a Belgian judge seated in Mons ruled that the opening four-bar theme to "Frozen" was plagiarized from the song "Ma vie fout le camp", composed by Salvatore Acquaviva of Mouscron. The judge subsequently ordered the withdrawal from sales of all remaining discs, and forbade any further playing of the song on Belgian TV and radio under wide protest of the Belgian population.

Frozen is like one of the few songs that I like by her, so I'm bummed I never get to hear it. I don't like it enough to download it. As I'm listening to the youtube clip now, I think it's been years (maybe even 5 lol) since I really heard it! Which is weird.

Day 19: a song from your favourite album

WHAT IS MY FAVOURITE ALBUM OMG? I don't think I have one atm. Idk, I'm in a weird music phase.

Since I've already picked a few Straylight Run songs, I'm gonna go with 'The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me' by Brand New. I still love this album. Even though my musical tastes have changed over the years, I really do still love Brand New. And sometimes I love Deja Entendu better than this album, but not today.

You Won't Know - Brand New

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Today is my nephew's birthday. And Harry Potter's! :D


Jul. 29th, 2010 09:25 pm
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Day 17: a song that you hear often on the radio

As I spend my days in Food Lion (Delhaize) most days, I get to listen to the music there, which is every day more or less the same. I've heard Love Dealer by Esmée Denters a lot lately, haha.

But when I wake up and go have breakfast mum has the radio on stubru. A lot of annoying songs are popular, but I'm gonna go with one less annoying song that's played a lot. On that station anyway, I don't listen to any other station than Studio Brussel.

Zornik - Walk

Zornik is a Belgian band I don't really like... But sometimes they're ok. And Walk is not a bad song.

I have always liked Scared of Yourself, though! I am going to put the video under a cut.

think about the liiiiiiiies )

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My sister was supposed to be home 20 minutes ago. We've been taking care of the kids for the whole week now, they go to sleep at home but stay at ours during the day. And that is a lot of work and tiring. I was pissed off when Emma asked to come babysit some MORE but agreed because I would be home by 21.05. I had study plans, and I know I'll never get to it when I get home. :(

There is a spn femmeslash big bang happening. Sign ups are happening now. I'm tempted! But then again idk what pairing I would write. I'm kind of stuck on Jo from SPN and Parker from Leverage....

Emma's here! I am off!
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Day 15: a song that describes you

This is tough because I feel like a lot of songs I can relate to because of some sort of situation, not because they describe me. I think - and I'm sorry for using this band AGAIN - that Straylight Run's 'It Never Gets Easier' comes close though.

For me, it's about giving in to people, to avoid conflict. And that is something so me. I avoid conflict, and at the same time sometimes feel so fed up with things and sometimes I get so angry but I don't talk about it. Until I explode, which is never fun.

Still Alone by the same band works as well, lol. Cannot find any video that is not live though! But I will upload it. Title of that song says it all.

Day 16 )

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Uploads will follow! Goodnight. <3
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Day 13: a song that is a guilty pleasure


See I know that it's like... just no.

But. Secretly I have it on my computer.

And it is the only song I can actually say I feel guilty about. I mean, I got Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera, even Miley Cyrus' Party in the USA (which makes me think of [profile] left_to_love haha), but none of those songs and artists actually makes me feel guilty.


and day 14 )

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Ugh it's almost time for bed.

I have to say though, getting up at 6.15 is hard, but I know I have to be at work on time, so I do it. Getting up at 7.30 for school is a whole different story.

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Day 11: a song from your favorite band

Well, Straylight Run is my favourite band. Was. I can't get used to that! But anyway. The song I'm choosing is one of my favourites, even though it is not my most played. The other songs that I listen to more are more depressing and I'm not in the mood for that!

Straylight Run haven't made a lot of songs that I don't like, so I keep looking back and thinking 'ooh I could pick this!' but you know.

And now, Day 12: a song from a band you hate

U2 - Vertigo.

IDK I just get really ARGH whenever this band comes up. Whatever. Everyone likes 'em, I'm sure they don't mind that I don't.

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Day 10 a song that makes you fall asleep

I can't embed, but here is the link!

Massive Attack - Teardrop

I have a lot of songs that can make me fall asleep. Mostly slow songs, but other than that I have no real criteria. It's just a list of songs that I know have made me fall asleep. :) Songs that I love. I chose this one because it's the longest and I can imagine falling asleep to it in a couple of minutes. I love Massive Attack. I only know a couple of songs though and I don't listen to them enough...

Alright gotta go catch some zzz's!

Uploads from today and yesterday is delayed until tomorrow, btw. :P
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Day 09: a song you can dance to

Britney Spears - The Hook Up

Upload will follow tomorrow. I'm really into the Blackout (Freakshow, Gimme More, Toy Soldier) and Circus ((Get Naked) I Got A Plan (ridic title, I know) ) songs, but this is one of my favourites, from In The Zone.

I have been a Spears fan since uh... Baby One More Time, when I was 12. I had my MCR phase, and stopped listening for a while, but then I started again. Heh.

I know it's not deep or inspirational, but I enjoy it so. :D

I have to get up at 5. Ouch. Goodnight!
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Yeah yeah, I suck at posting every day. :P

Day 07: a song that reminds you of a certain event

Other than reminding me of the actual movie, this song catapults me right back to a summer's night actually it was midsummer's night. Together with Fia and our friend in highschool then, Soetkin, I spent a few hours lying on a blanket staring at the stars, talking, listening to music and celebrating a wiccan sabbat. Don't laugh. It was a special sort of night. So yeah, Litha (= June 21st) 200..I wanna say 2 or 3.

Day 08: a song that you know all the words to

I couldn't find a youtube video of this song that wasn't live. Figures. So here's a download:

Destry - Trouble

This is Michelle Nolan (or DaRosa)'s 'new' band. Picked the song because there are a lot of songs I know the lyrics to, and this one came up on my iTunes and I LOVE this song. So yeah. :D

day 01: your favorite song
day 02: your least favorite song
day 03: a song that makes you happy
day 04: a song that makes you sad
day 05: a song that reminds you of someone
day 06: a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08: A song that you know all the words to
day 09: A song that you can dance to
day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
day 11: A song from your favorite band
day 12: A song from a band you hate
day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love
day 15: A song that describes you
day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate
day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio
day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19: A song from your favorite album
day 20: A song that you listen to when you're angry
day 21: A song that you listen to when you're happy
day 22: A song that you listen to when you're sad
day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25: A song that makes you laugh
day 26: A song that you can play on an instrument
day 27: A song that you wish you could play
day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty
day 29: A song from your childhood
day 30: Your favorite song at this time last year

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