aghostofasmile: picture of girl sitting behind a piano (piano)
Hi guys!

So this is my attempt at being more active on lj again. I don't understand how I could post so much in July, while I'm pretty much doing the exact same thing all day. Nothing. :P

I got a job for a week at a hotel, lol. House keeping. Yeah... it'll probably suck. But I'll at least get some money. Kind of need to buy stuff, like blouses and beauty products. I need stuff for my wrinkles. That no one else can see but me. Whatever, it's all about prevention.

Day #27: a song that you wish you could play

Dawn, from the Pride and Prejudice soundtrack. Upload tomorrow or later.

I'm working on this song now, but it's hard to motivate myself to actually play lately. I have no patience with myself. I can play every song I ever had to play, but learning new things on my own ain't that easy for me. I have no discipline and I want to get it right immediately. And this song isn't so hard! If I would practice daily I could play it.

the rest of the list )

I was going to start going to take classes again. I promised myself I would do that. But then my plans for this year changed, and I'm probably not going to be in the country for half of the school year, so I'm not paying 200 euros for 1 semester of classes. Also, I wouldn't be taking exams or anything so that would be a real waste. Maybe in 2012-2013, right?

I just feel so empty-like. I can't get myself to write. I only watch tv shows and movies. I get so dragged down by all the negativity in this house. Siiigh. But I'll see Sophie and Stefanie again on Thursday for shopping, so that'll be nice. Plus if I go to work next week, I'm done at about 3pm, so that means I have time to go shopping or something. Maybe I'll buy a book...

I graduated officially yesterday! Got a fancy piece of paper that says I'm a Professional Bachelor in Applied Psychology. And I am taking classes that'll eventually lead me to be allowed to teach psychology and stuff in high school. So that's kind of productive.

And last week was a pretty good week. So maybe I'm just pms-ing. Hmmm.

Talk to you guys soon, thanks for reading.

aghostofasmile: picture of girl sitting behind a piano (piano)
Fia is doing this meme at the moment, and I like it, so I'm stealing it. I'm sure she won't mind. <3 Let's see if I can manage finishing the whole thing in 20 days, eh?

OK, until August 8th I can manage, but then I am leaving for Firenze with my parents and idk if I'll have wifi. Though seeing as the guy owning the place is a bussiness man I hope so?


Day 01: your favourite song

Every time I have to think about my favourite song I find it hard, because I'm not good at picking favourites. But when you look at my, and iTunes it's quite obvious. I love this song for the feeling that it gives me, and all good memories attached. It's got everything I love most about music: piano, a good melody, good lyrics, and two voices that I love, and this special kind of atmosphere. This song is one of my comfort songs.

It also got covered by Taking Back Sunday, on the first show with the new very old line up. Would have loved to be there.

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day 01: your favorite song
day 02: your least favorite song
day 03: a song that makes you happy
day 04: a song that makes you sad
day 05: a song that reminds you of someone
day 06: A song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08: A song that you know all the words to
day 09: A song that you can dance to
day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep
day 11: A song from your favorite band
day 12: A song from a band you hate
day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love
day 15: A song that describes you
day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate
day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio
day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19: A song from your favorite album
day 20: A song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21: A song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22: A song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25: A song that makes you laugh
day 26: A song that you can play on an instrument
day 27: A song that you wish you could play
day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty
day 29: A song from your childhood
day 30: Your favorite song at this time last year

I went to the doctor today. He said 'Well this time it should really be better' and I was like 'I sure hope so because otherwise I'm just going to deal with it. >:|'. Of course I didn't say that out loud. :)


Jun. 29th, 2010 12:20 am
aghostofasmile: me (me)
Today something awesome happened!

Nah I'm just kidding. As far as things go, it was kind of mediocre. But I've been having back pain for the past... 2 or 3 weeks? And I have scoliosis, so I'm kind of used to back pain now and then. Especially during stressful times. It's my weak spot.

Anyhoo, usually I can fix it by doing some back exercises, using flexium gel, or taking it easy. But none of those things worked and the pain got worse. It was my lower back. So I went to the doctor I used to go to ages ago, from when I was 14 to when I was 17. He knows my back and I trust him.

He looked up my file and told me 'Hey it's been six years!' which is kind of good, really. Afterwards he told me my back/spine looks fine, considering I had a pretty severe bend in my spine when I was 14. I had to wear a brace for two years. At least I think it was 2 years... I've been keeping up with exercises now and then, and he said that definitely helps keeping things under control. I was happy to hear that.

For some reason I was fearing something like 'Dude, your spine is fucked, there is nothing I can do, it's pain management from now on, sorry.' Which may sound dramatic, but it's not like it can't happen.

I always dread going. Having your back manipulated is... not pleasant. I really had to breathe through it. I was expecting worse, though, it used to take longer. But he said it's no use to try and manipulate the scoliosis now I'm an 'adult'. I'd have to go back every week for years on end to have it take any long-lasting effect.

So nooow I feel weird, but I'm not in pain. I hear things in my back cracking when I walk around, lol, pretty creepy. But in my head everything is just falling/shifting back into place now.

You know how I can see I have scoliosis? Besides the obvious 'By looking at my back', of course. The left side of my collarbones is less pronounced than my right side. Annoys me. But if that's all it is... Some people have way more severe back issues than I do. So I'm kind of grateful. In a 'it could be worse' way. Besides... no one really has a completely normal body, right? :)

I know I always have something I want to change about myself. Not all of them unreasonable. That's just life, isn't it?

This was supposed to be a fandom related post with a bit of RL.


I'll try again tomorrow. <3
aghostofasmile: Picture of wall with poem painted on by Hafiz (even after all this time, the sun never says to the earth, "You owe me") (it lights the whole sky)
Hmmm. Everytime a song from the (500) Days of Summer OST comes up, I feel like watching it. I'm not going to. Not today. Maybe tomorrow. :)

Preparing for exams has officially begun. I took the week off last week, and only went to class and copied notes. And then on Wednesday I went home, and read books and was on the internet a lot. And then on Friday I watched the season five finale of Supernatural. And then I rewatched it on Saturday. I am quite pleased with the finale. There were things that could have been better. Things we wanted (like the amulet) didn't happen, etc. But it was OK. I hope season six will be good. For now it's good to read fic, and meta.

I've never been this kind of involved with a series. I was obsessed with Buffy when it aired, but I never really went out of my way to see what other people thought about this or that developement. I just watched and waited for a week for a new episode. I never read Buffy fanfic. But Supernatural, it's fun.

Yes I know the fans are crazy. Or the crazies are the ones getting most attention. But it's a nice fandom to be in. I like it here. I might just delurk a little bit. (D:)

SO preparing for exams is going...fine. I have no plan. Some people follow a schedule I just think when I go to sleep 'Hmmm cognitive therapy tomorrow?'. Idk, I like lists and schedules, but for exams they never quite work out.

I'm glad I took some days to recover and relax. I think at the end of my higher education my body was like, "You know what? Fuck it. You do this every year, you tire me out, you eat crappy unhealthy food, don't drink enough water, and sit on your ass all day. I'm so done with that attitude!"

I'll try to be better, body, I promise. Bottle of water next to me, healthy snacks, and better eating habits.

I'm even taking vitamins.

So, not much going on, but I wanted to update anyway. =)


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